Is this working?

As I pause to reflect on the reason I started this blog in the first place (to become more Christlike and learn to love people) I realize that I am failing. I have had more struggles with hurt feelings, etc. the last month or so than I've had for a long time. If I'm really getting better at loving people, then why am I struggling like this? I don't feel charitable, I don't feel loving and I don't feel more Christlike. Sigh. I can only see my faults and flaws, and I wonder sometimes why I even try. I don't do these things to impress or for praise, but lately I feel pretty much unloved and unappreciated. Which shows that I'm just as selfish as ever. Double sigh.